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It's been a long time since we had guest speakers who bring their personal life experiences into the sermons. Most pastors will share what is from the bible. The characters from the bible. Learn from them.

Now that we could learn from a drug trafficker who turned over a new leaf.
His offences were erased permanently by the judge, just like God erased our sins (Romans 6:18 You have been set free from sin and have become slaves to righteousness).

His name is Daniel Ross.
He was bold and had the courage to relate his past to us so that we could learn from him.
He reminded me that money is the root of evil.
He reminded me that as long as we don't surrender ourselves to God 100%, we will not not receive God's blessings and forgiveness.

I had a past, just like him.
I thought I had already shown forgiveness to the person who had once hurt me deeply.
I don't hate that person anymore, in fact, I tried to show more love.
However, the feeling of looking back to the past was just WAY too strong.
The feeling of guilt and shame for the past mistake still haunts me.

Today, I realised that it's not because I did not show forgiveness to others.
I forgot to show forgiveness to MYSELF.
I was not able to forgive myself.
I thought I was going nowhere, not receiving God's grace.
I never understood this before about forgiving ourselves and accepting back ourselves.
I think I was still dwelling in my past.

I don't want to be in darkness, but I want to be in the Light of God.
When things are dark, our visions will be blurred.

Now that not only I ask God for strength, but I ask God for His Blessings pouring upon me.
I pray that God will show me the light.
ANd now that I've let go of everything that has been holding me back, that stopped me from experiencing God's greatness.

Philippians 3:13b-14
Forgetting what is behind and straining toward what is ahead, I press on toward the goal to win the prize for which God has called me heavenward in Christ Jesus.


Josie Lim said…
Must agree with you on one point -Yes, money is indeed evil..
Ppl with excess money will find it harder to let go..and surrender to God wholly. No man can serve 2 Gods.
Many times we see family feud arising from property apportionment, following to the death of an benefactor.

Totally agree with you.. Forgiveness goes hand in hand with love.. when u forgive (love) urself, then only can u forgive(love) others...

Do continue bloggin these insightful blogs often.. yeah!
classyadele said…
I cant imagine u vehemently hating anyone - even from the past! Ure too nice! Is it even possible to irritate you to that extent of being hated with a vengeance?

U r too nice la Mei yi...who's this fella whom u find it hard to 'let go'?
mei yi said…
Yes Josie-gal. :)
I'm trying to pyscho myself back that I don't need to envy those women with gucci bags and coach bags. :D

adele...... oh adele......
cerita si meimeizoe memang pilu...
i think if it's God's enemy - like anti-christ or what, probably i will hate-lah. I'm not sure. I have not learnt to hate, i think.

and.. it's not about letting go of the person la, let go of the situation.. macam satu package. will talk further with you online.
Shirokishi said…
I hated getting Chicken Pox last year sometime in July >.<
mei yi said…
huh? chicken pox?
i had chicken pox before too!
and i did look like some kinda monster of pokemon..
Karen said…
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mei yi said…
regret? y shld i? :P

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